This is Me

My Controversial Life..

"God will Find a Way.."

Yes, God will find a way.. He will never leave you alone, He will guide you to the right path..

3 weeks ago, there's someone who texted me. Superrrr bastos ng mga tinext niya.. As In., Parang hindi siya tinuruan ng magulang niya ng MANNERS.. Then that psycho warned me, he's threatening me.. I can't sleep, i can barely eat.. I dont know what to do.. I can't find the very reason why that psycho is threatening me.. Sinabi ko sa dad and mom ko.. And they told me that, if that psycho texted me again, i'll forward the texts and the number to them. My dad is making a move. He even asked help, his investigator friend helped him. And then, that psycho texted me again.. I forwarded the number and the superrr rude texts to my dad. So he traced it.. And then last night, my dad kept on texting him. He's using God's words of wisdom and fortunately, the psycho replied.. But he replied in a way that he seems to be so educated and have a deep faith in God(hindi kagaya nung una na parang hindi nkapag aral kung makapagsalita) . At first, He said that he's a guy, Aldy from Cabuyao but we know he's just lying. Later on, we found out that he's from carmona, a lay minister, and the MOST SHOCKING : he's my dad's close friend! he's the tatay-tatayan of my good friend PJ.. Then my dad called him, the guy had no idea on what's happening. We rushed to his house(3 streets away from our home). Then we talked to him, his sim was lost 3 weeks ago and he just magically found it in his clock something. I think, he's being used. This was just a trap. We have our political problem, probably, the mastermind wants my dad and him to fight. That guy also have a political problem. It's hard to explain it but him and i were both victims. And as we talked to him, the puzzle was starting to be completed. Every details, stories, everything. That the person whom we thought did that was so innocent, that the only mai reason is : POLITICS.
First : Lost sim and then found again but his smart sim was still missing. ( There was this anonymous person who miscalled me few days ago using smart sim)
Second : He's a good friend and my dad knows him well (He really can't do that)
Third : Political problem
Fourth : My dad also had his threat a day before i got mine.


I just realized that, MONEY is the root of all evil talaga. That Politics here is so corrupt. And the thing that I hated most is that, im being involved. And my dad was soo sorry. Well, that's life. They have the power, money and everything that we do not have. But they maybe rich or whatever, but in God's eye they're nothing. They maybe POWERFUL today but someday, everything they have will all be gone. They treat themselves like they're sooo powerful but God is the most powerful. They treat themselves as God, they want to control everything. They're so evil. They want money, people, power, EVERYTHING. Even the church here! They are still not contented. But I am sure, God will punish them someday.

Politics is like showbiz. I have a controversial Dad or should I say, family because eversince, we're involve in politics so, I am also controversial now. Im innocent but they made an issue and they threatened me. But I'm not afraid, as long as I am not doing something wrong, I have my family beside me and I know God is there to help us,, I WILL NEVER BE AFRAID.

addiction.

"When you loved someone who's willing to kill you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give, how could you not give it? if it was someone you trully love?"

ALMOST LOVER

ALMOST LOVER

I'm trying not to think about you

can't you just let me be

so long my luckless romance

my back is turned on you

should have known you'd bring me heartache

almost lovers always do

we walked along a crowded street,

you took my hand and danced with me,

images

and when you left you kissed my lips,

you said you'd never, never forget these images..

"well, I'd never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me"

goodbye my almost lover

goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

can't you just let me be

so long my luckless romance

my back is turned on you

should have known you'd bring me heartache

almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the oceanc

annot drive the streets at night

cannot wake up in the morning

without you on my mind

so you're gone and I'm haunted

I'll bet you are just fine

did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

i hate you.

November 11, 2008, Tuesday. ROOMie's CRAZIIINNNEESSSS.

HAHAHA. Superrrr kabaliwan namin ng roommates koh! AS IN.

My roommates and I decided not to attend the meeting. (Unfortunately, we have a meeting with Sisiter Isabel just to discuss the rules, etc.etc.etc). Wanna know our craziness?

hahaha. Tinay and Trish pretended they're asleep and covered themdelves w/ lots of blanket! The more craziest thing is, Celine and I hid in our CLOSET! take note : we're in our closet for lika 15 minutes! (we're waiting for ate aneen kasi to come and check in our room) haha. AND THE SUPEERRRRRR CRAZIEST THING is cha! She hid under her table, covered herself w/ the shelves with thingyyyyy and she covered herself with her LAUNDRY! cool. ryt?? HAHAHAHA!

Im just inspired to write something.. 11/16/08, 7:30pm

Honestly, I just wanna reflect in the past things that had happened.

Hmm.. Lately, i'm not happy. But my friends made me happy though. Im not happy because there was this guy who leave me hanging. Do you ever know that feeling? Everything is okay and all of a sudden, He just decided to leave you? Why is this happening? It's not karma but I think most guys were just jackasssss. Now, Im just trying my best to be happy and Im just enjoying every moment with my friends. I dont know what to feel. Because, this situation happened 3 times. I hope there is a guy who can prove to me that they're not the same.

To you :

Everything happened so fast,

And I thought this will last.

You are close to perfect,

So I don't know how to reject.

I thought, you really love me,

But in the end, You made me feel so empty.

At first, you exerted so many efforts,

And suddenly, you asked me if you can court.

Everything felt so right,

I thought you will hold on tight.

You gave me what i needed,

But it just suddenly ended.

I hope you warned me that this was just your stupid game,

So that I can play it better in my own game.

Thank You for the short time,

We'll be better in due time.

Good Luck on being a jerk,

And IO hope you are happy on being a flirt.

this is me by demi lavato

I've always been the kind of girl That hid my face So afraid to tell the world What I've got to say But I have this dream Right inside of me I'm gonna let it show It's time to let you know to let you know This is real This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me Do you know what it's like To feel so in the dark To dream about a life Where you're the shining star Even though it seems Like it's too far away I have to believe in myself It's the only way This is real This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you I gotta find you You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you This is real This is meI'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be yeah This is me You're the missing piece I need The song inside of meYou're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me..

THIS IS ME..