"All I knowIs everything is not as it's sold but the more I grow the less I know. And I have lived so many lives,Though I'm not old And the more I see, the less I grow. The fewer the seeds the more I sow.Then I see you standing there, Wanting more from me And all I can do is try..Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try. I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness And all the real people are really not real at all. The more I learn the more I cry,As I say goodbye to the way of life, I thought I had designed for me . All of the moments that already passed, We'll try to go back and make them last. All of the things we want each other to be We never will be And that's wonderful, and that's life And that's you, baby This is me, baby And we are, we areFree In our love.."
well, honestly.. i am not that okay.. i don't know why i am like this. Yeah, im depressed! Super slow ko kasi, ang bagal kasi mag sink-in sakin yung mga nangyayari. Honestly, maybe.. MAYBE wala nmn ako kasi dapat ika-depressed but kung sabagay.. Naiinis ako sa mga people na parang magpaparamdam sayo na may something pero in the end, He would just tell you na "ayaw ng commitment" , na "ayaw ng obligations" , na "ayaw ng may iniintindi". A.hollee! grabee.. A good friend of mine (chini) told me that how come he dont want to be committed, he dont want obligations or what-so-ever tapos he makes me feel na may something. He was just scared of the responsibilities. Pero di ba, sana wag kang magpapa-fall ng tao kung wala ka nmn palang balak saluhin. I am starting to hate guys (honestly). Pare-pareho silang lahat e.. They dont know how to treat girls right. Ang babae, minamahal at inaalagaan. Hindi dapat sinasaktan.
At eto pah,, pagbukas ko ng pc namin, eh di nagfriendster ako, i saw his gf's account.(i mean "ex" daw nya), eh may recently added pics pa. Sarap di ba.. pero im not that stupid nmn, i know how and when to stop. I wanted to try but i am loosing myself, and i really have no reason to fight. I learned na in this world, there are so many lies. Sabi nga ni Alvin Galvez sakin na NEVER ko talaga nakakalimutan is that, "you should not believe agad sa mga sinasabi sayo ng guys or don't fall agad sa mga ginagawa nila 'coz im a guy, i know yung mga takbo ng utak ng lalaki.". Well, he's soooooo right.. So girls, wag agad tayo magpapauto sa mga guys. Let us make them realize na hindi dapat tayo sinasaktan. Let go of the things na nakakasakit sayo. And keep in mind na maybe kaya hindi sayo binigay sayo ni God yan, it's either na makakasama sayo yan or He has something better to give. (':
