12.30.08

I woke up @ 9a.m. And instead of eating, the first thing that I did was.. CLEAN MY CLOSET! tadah! haha. Unbelievable.. haha.. I discharge the clothes that I dont want and guess what? pwede akong maggarage sale ng bonggang bongga! Or even ukay ukay. haha. I have a lot of imported clothes kc na minsan quoh lng ginamit. Anyway, As I fold the clothes, I saw letters sa closet quoh. Take note, halos laht ng letters quoh ay galing sa ex quoh na si R.M. hahaha! I read 1 letter, it was a letter that was given to me during Christmas 3 or 4 years ago? and sobra. As in sooobraaaa akong naloka ng bonggang bongga habang binabasa koh. haha. ANG SWEET KASI!

" If it were death to love you, dez, then I would have died and died again,. Thousand times all over again.. " - R.M

12.27.08

I am just inspired to write something here. ((;

As usual, i woke up @ around 11:30 a.m today. Nothing so special. Nothing new. Mom, dad and I went to SM. Well, my 3 brothers doesn't wanna come with us. I had a great time. While mom was having her haircut, dad and i sat on the chair in the middle. There were so many Koreans. And funny, dad told me that one Korean looks like my bro - Patrick. Haha. Dad and mom bought Katsudon and i bought chesseburger value meal (my all time favorite). We went home. I just realized that, NO MATTER HOW PLAIN YOUR DAY WAS, IT FEELS SOOOO EXTRAORDINARY AND UNFORGETTABLE WHEN YOU SPENT IT WITH YOUR PARENTS..

I just value time. ^^

I LOVE MY FAMILY AND PARENTS SO MUCH. (:

December 3, 2008 -> English Time.

If you want to be remembered, follow these 3 things :
by Ms. Gwen.^^

1. plant a tree
2.write a good book
3.raise a family

and i also love the explanation of Ms. Gwen about "moving on" and "moving forward"

I am not moving on 'coz i am MOVING FORWARD. ^^


"NEVER underestimate yourself because EVERYONE has BOUNDLESS potentials.."

some quotes from the book "for one more day"

I so love the book "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom because it really touched my heart. The story is about family. Well, when it comes to family, i am sensitive. Anyway, here are some quotes that i like in the book :

"If you had the chance, just one chance to go back and fix what you did wrong in life, would you take it? And if you did, would you be big enough to stand it?"

Ask yourself this : Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, ONE MORE CHANCE TO MAKE UP FOR THE TIME WHEN YOU THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE HERE FOREVER? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh that you wish you had back.. But what if you got it back?

The truth is there is no line. There's only your life, how you mess it up and who is there to save you. Or who isn't.

Being unheard is the ground floor of GIVING UP and giving up is the ground floor of DOING YOURSELF IN.

It is not so much, what's the point? It's more like the WHAT'S the difference?

GOING BACK TO SOMETHING IS HARDER THAN YOU THINK.

The backside of a mountain is a fight against human nature.


You have to care as much about yourself on the way down as you did on the way up.

When someone is in your heart, they're NEVER truly gone. They can come back to you, even at unlikely times.

This is Me

My Controversial Life..

"God will Find a Way.."

Yes, God will find a way.. He will never leave you alone, He will guide you to the right path..

3 weeks ago, there's someone who texted me. Superrrr bastos ng mga tinext niya.. As In., Parang hindi siya tinuruan ng magulang niya ng MANNERS.. Then that psycho warned me, he's threatening me.. I can't sleep, i can barely eat.. I dont know what to do.. I can't find the very reason why that psycho is threatening me.. Sinabi ko sa dad and mom ko.. And they told me that, if that psycho texted me again, i'll forward the texts and the number to them. My dad is making a move. He even asked help, his investigator friend helped him. And then, that psycho texted me again.. I forwarded the number and the superrr rude texts to my dad. So he traced it.. And then last night, my dad kept on texting him. He's using God's words of wisdom and fortunately, the psycho replied.. But he replied in a way that he seems to be so educated and have a deep faith in God(hindi kagaya nung una na parang hindi nkapag aral kung makapagsalita) . At first, He said that he's a guy, Aldy from Cabuyao but we know he's just lying. Later on, we found out that he's from carmona, a lay minister, and the MOST SHOCKING : he's my dad's close friend! he's the tatay-tatayan of my good friend PJ.. Then my dad called him, the guy had no idea on what's happening. We rushed to his house(3 streets away from our home). Then we talked to him, his sim was lost 3 weeks ago and he just magically found it in his clock something. I think, he's being used. This was just a trap. We have our political problem, probably, the mastermind wants my dad and him to fight. That guy also have a political problem. It's hard to explain it but him and i were both victims. And as we talked to him, the puzzle was starting to be completed. Every details, stories, everything. That the person whom we thought did that was so innocent, that the only mai reason is : POLITICS.
First : Lost sim and then found again but his smart sim was still missing. ( There was this anonymous person who miscalled me few days ago using smart sim)
Second : He's a good friend and my dad knows him well (He really can't do that)
Third : Political problem
Fourth : My dad also had his threat a day before i got mine.


I just realized that, MONEY is the root of all evil talaga. That Politics here is so corrupt. And the thing that I hated most is that, im being involved. And my dad was soo sorry. Well, that's life. They have the power, money and everything that we do not have. But they maybe rich or whatever, but in God's eye they're nothing. They maybe POWERFUL today but someday, everything they have will all be gone. They treat themselves like they're sooo powerful but God is the most powerful. They treat themselves as God, they want to control everything. They're so evil. They want money, people, power, EVERYTHING. Even the church here! They are still not contented. But I am sure, God will punish them someday.

Politics is like showbiz. I have a controversial Dad or should I say, family because eversince, we're involve in politics so, I am also controversial now. Im innocent but they made an issue and they threatened me. But I'm not afraid, as long as I am not doing something wrong, I have my family beside me and I know God is there to help us,, I WILL NEVER BE AFRAID.

addiction.

"When you loved someone who's willing to kill you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give, how could you not give it? if it was someone you trully love?"

ALMOST LOVER

ALMOST LOVER

I'm trying not to think about you

can't you just let me be

so long my luckless romance

my back is turned on you

should have known you'd bring me heartache

almost lovers always do

we walked along a crowded street,

you took my hand and danced with me,

images

and when you left you kissed my lips,

you said you'd never, never forget these images..

"well, I'd never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me"

goodbye my almost lover

goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

can't you just let me be

so long my luckless romance

my back is turned on you

should have known you'd bring me heartache

almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the oceanc

annot drive the streets at night

cannot wake up in the morning

without you on my mind

so you're gone and I'm haunted

I'll bet you are just fine

did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

i hate you.

November 11, 2008, Tuesday. ROOMie's CRAZIIINNNEESSSS.

HAHAHA. Superrrr kabaliwan namin ng roommates koh! AS IN.

My roommates and I decided not to attend the meeting. (Unfortunately, we have a meeting with Sisiter Isabel just to discuss the rules, etc.etc.etc). Wanna know our craziness?

hahaha. Tinay and Trish pretended they're asleep and covered themdelves w/ lots of blanket! The more craziest thing is, Celine and I hid in our CLOSET! take note : we're in our closet for lika 15 minutes! (we're waiting for ate aneen kasi to come and check in our room) haha. AND THE SUPEERRRRRR CRAZIEST THING is cha! She hid under her table, covered herself w/ the shelves with thingyyyyy and she covered herself with her LAUNDRY! cool. ryt?? HAHAHAHA!

Im just inspired to write something.. 11/16/08, 7:30pm

Honestly, I just wanna reflect in the past things that had happened.

Hmm.. Lately, i'm not happy. But my friends made me happy though. Im not happy because there was this guy who leave me hanging. Do you ever know that feeling? Everything is okay and all of a sudden, He just decided to leave you? Why is this happening? It's not karma but I think most guys were just jackasssss. Now, Im just trying my best to be happy and Im just enjoying every moment with my friends. I dont know what to feel. Because, this situation happened 3 times. I hope there is a guy who can prove to me that they're not the same.

To you :

Everything happened so fast,

And I thought this will last.

You are close to perfect,

So I don't know how to reject.

I thought, you really love me,

But in the end, You made me feel so empty.

At first, you exerted so many efforts,

And suddenly, you asked me if you can court.

Everything felt so right,

I thought you will hold on tight.

You gave me what i needed,

But it just suddenly ended.

I hope you warned me that this was just your stupid game,

So that I can play it better in my own game.

Thank You for the short time,

We'll be better in due time.

Good Luck on being a jerk,

And IO hope you are happy on being a flirt.

this is me by demi lavato

I've always been the kind of girl That hid my face So afraid to tell the world What I've got to say But I have this dream Right inside of me I'm gonna let it show It's time to let you know to let you know This is real This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me Do you know what it's like To feel so in the dark To dream about a life Where you're the shining star Even though it seems Like it's too far away I have to believe in myself It's the only way This is real This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in You're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing I need to find you I gotta find you You're the missing piece I need The song inside of me I need to find you I gotta find you This is real This is meI'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be yeah This is me You're the missing piece I need The song inside of meYou're the voice I hear inside my head The reason that I'm singing Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me..

THIS IS ME..

i made this last 8/20/08 @ 2:00 pm-thurs

ELRF

From the moment I saw you,

I couldn't stop thinking of you.

I wonder what's your name,

And everytime I think of you, it makes me insane.

We we're introduced by a common friend,

But as time passes by, it seems like we're more than friends.

There's something on the way you look at me,

It seems that you want me.

You are the first one to make a move,

And everytime we were together, i just cant move.

"Looking in your eyes while you're on the other side,

sweetie, i got a thing for you"

That's the song that kept on playing on my mind,

You know what? I hate you for being so kind!

I wanna feel you, see you, love you!

But now? You are starting to break my heart into two.

You are now so cold,

Don't you know that you are the one I wanna hold?

It really broke my heart,

When you told me that you're ex wants to get back to you and it really tears me apart.

Suddenly you're gone,

But thanks, I had fun.

Eventhough I'm saying that It's ok,

It is killing me, but hey!

No matter how much I want you,

No matter how much I like you,

Im telling you, this feeling is true.

I hope you'll be happy,

With you're ex that was so undearly.

Im still here for you,

Eventhough I have to forget my feelings for you.

Im not regretting the moment I met you,

Because I'll still and always will care for you.

I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FOR REAL THIS TIME.. .

i made this last April 20, 2008 @ 12midnight

BITTERNESS

I gave my heart to you,

hurting me is the thing that you loved to do..

I've done everything to make you happy,

But all you did was to make me feel so empty.

My dream came true when we became lovers,

You told me you love me and that's all i can remember.

As day passed by, you don't care for me at all,

But the things that you did before really made me fall.

You said you're confused,

And I felt that I'm just being used.

you just want to revenge because of your past,

And our love came by so fast.

You said that I will just stay beside you,

But fuck! What did you do?!

You left me dark and empty,

So now, are you happy?

All I can see is darkness,

And all i can feel is coldness.

I gave mjy all to you,

But what did you do?

You've wasted everything,

For just your stupid thing.

I remembered when I Lived you,And I so remembered the day when you broke my heart into two.

You really dont love me,

that's why you set me free?

But why did you told me to stay?

If all you really want me away?

What are the meanings of your sweetness before?

You just did that because you were bored?

Why did you told me you love me?

When all you did was to hurt me?...

untitLed.. .

November 20, 2007

4:00pm

I was lonely before,

And my past haunts me more..

He broke my heart,

and tear it apart.

But suddenly you came

And thinking of him was totally a shame..

My faded life became colorful..

And this feeling is so wonderful.

You are so nice and sweet,

And i know, you don't wana see me weep.

The solitude past melted away,

Because you loved me in many ways..

We are morethen friends but less than a lover,

And to tell you honestly.. i dont want this to be over..

ContoxvErsiAL

ContOxvERsiAL

10/7/07

9:30 a.m

Before, I thought that it was just a game,

But now? You've put me in shame!

You told me you love me,

But why I feel so empty?

You let me fall for you,

And now, I feel so blu.

You said you need space,

Everything that happened was just a maze.

I'll stop loving you,

I'll stop caring for you,

I'll stop wanting you

'Coz i love myself too.

July 7 - 13

July 7 , 2008

this is the time na bumalik ako sa dorm. xempwe saan pa ba ako pupunta?

xempwe sa imno na! hahaha. ayun, tumambay ako sa imno. ordinary day lang.

sayaw lang, tamang chill. ^^ pero may nambuhos sakin ng beer na insecure na babae. ayun. muntik na mapaaway kami peo ayos lang, ang pikon lageng talo! =p

July 8, 2008

maaga natapos class koh neto. tapos nag imno ako,, kasama ko si meggie!hehehe..andun dn yung mga tropa ko sa imno. i met a guy na chesty yung name and he's sooo hot. Lahat nasa knya na but i duno kung pati ugali nya e maganda. aanhin ko nmn kasi yung guy na gago di ba? yung panget ugali. mas okay na yung kahit hindi gaanong gwapo pero maganda naman ugali di ba? pinapunta koh din imno sila ketchai, aje, judith and kasama nila blockmates nila. sumunod lang si pepper.^^ (miss you pepper) tapos ayun, andun din sila donna at vivie! haha. tandem ever talaga kami ni donna pagdating sa kalantudan! hahaha! hinatid ako ni chesty sa dorm, tapos ayun magkatext kami and 2x pa siya tumawag sakin tapos kinantahan niya ako. ang ganda ng voice niya infairness. ayun.. ^^

July 9,2008

HAPPY B-DAY REDZZZZZZZZ!!!!!

today is wednesday, at sa kasamaang palad, absent ang crush kong prof na si Fr. Bob! =(

hahaha! and may mass kami so hindi nakapag exam sa accounting! at eto pa, General Assembly namin so walang logic at p.e.. Dun sa General Assembly ang tagal bago ako makapunta imno, mga 6pm na. BDAY BASH NI REDZ and sinurprise namin siya ng cake. Mejo konti tao gawa ng may nag away pla. wala si elmo nun. =( kasi yung katropa nya yung inaway. ayun. umuwi ako mag isa. saya di ba? hahahaha.

July 10, 2008

Thursday

haha. etong araw na 2, ok na ok! hahaha. nagpunta kami imno ni jug! nag away sila ng bf niya. ayun, xempwe andun si elmo. ((: what if pag nagkakatinginan kayo ng crush mo? tapos nahuhuli mo siya tumitingin sayo kapag may kausap ka? hahaha. FUNNY. anyway, mga 5:30 umuwi si jug. =( tapos nag uwian na dn iba, kami nlng ni robin natira sa tropa. lumipat kami sa my gitna. tapos si elmo, nilapitan ako, eh , mga 6:30 na nun kaya uuwi na ko kasi hinihintay ako nila maan for dinner. ayun. hinatid ako sa may sakayan ni elmo. ^^ tapos simula nun magkatext na kami. im soo happoy.

"LOVE IN THIS CLUB"

July 11, 2008

Friday

nag away kami ni con neto. hahaha. nagtampo lang ako.. magkatext kami ni elmo buong araw. ^^ recollection namin ngayon. haha. naku naiinis ako sa lunch namin coz it's chicken and im soo allergic to chicken! =s anyway, nagpasama si chini asshole my lab sa U.P soo ayun, nag adventure kaming dalawa. hahah! and then while we were walking, sa katangahang palad, natapilok ako at na "tnga" aqoh ni my lab! hahah! tapos nung papunta kaming other side ng UP sa may faura, xempwe sa rob ang daan eh natapilok ako ulit. haha. ako na nakahigh heels. ayun, medyo dugyot na dugyot kami ni asshole. haha. when we were in faura na, there was this fuckin guy na binangga ako ng lunch box niya yta un sa legs at hindi man lang nag sorry! grr. so sa init ng ulo ko, sumigaw ako ng "sorry ha!!!!!!" at nagulat sa akin si chini beybehh! hahaha. at alm niyo ba? may nagsabi ky chini ng " hi miss,are you good? " and foreigner. yak. hahaha! (iba alindog mo chini!) hahaha. nung palabas na kami ng rob, nadaanan namin yung razon's at sabi ko ky chini : "chini, ang init nhu? kagutom mag adbentyurr! ahem! razon's! ahem! razons!ahem! ahem!" tapos ililibre dw ako ni chini pero sa mcdo! hahahah! tapos ayun, nagpanoramic xray na si chini. bumalik kami sa rob to buy havaianas for jc and anniv gift for nin. ayun then nag mcdo kami at nag GO BIG TIME SI CHINI. hahaha. busoooggg na bosssooggg ako! tenk you asshole my lab!!! haha.. tapos ayun, bumalik na kami school and nagpunta ako imno. then, pinuntahan ako ni wiL.. ngaun lang ulit kami nagkita. ^^ hahaha. tapos hinatid niya ako kasam yung friend niya. ^^

July 12, 2008

I HATE 12.

well, excited akong umuwi kasi makikita ko na tita ko na galing states.^^

pag uwi ko, may fam gathering kami, so andito lahat. my gulaayy! ako taga habol ng cuzins ko na bata. nkakapagod! hahaha! tapos may gift sakin si tita na jacket, it's soooo nice and i love itttt! ((:

bakit ko hate ang 12? haha. secret!

July 13, 2008

na food poison ang little bro q. =((

hayyyyy.. nagpunta kami makati to get my tito's coat. then bumalik kami dito then punta SM then watched a movie. ayun. ganda ng movie ni will smith. ^^

yesterday

"Yesterday"

Leona Lewis

the moment na pinarinig sakin ni tinay tong song na 2, sooobraaang hindi ako makaget overrrr!

nasa starbucks siya sa midtown, celine, jamine and i were going to imno (july 4, 2008)

but since magwiwithdraw muna si celine, i decided to drop by sa sbux.

i visited alvin alsoo. haha.

and then, tinay told me, "sexy friend may ipaparinig ako sayong song"

and then the first song e bye bye taz next song e yesterday.

eto lyrics : (ganda superr)

just can't believe you're gone, still waiting for morning to come, wanna see if the sun will rise, even without you by my side. When we had so much in store, tell me what is it i'm reaching for. When we're through building memories, i'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart. Chorus. They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that we'll never play. All the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we'll never know, they can take the places that we said we would go. All the broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. You always used to stay, i should be thankful for everyday. Heaven knows what the future holds, or at least how the story goes. (but i never believed them 'til now.) I know i'll see you again i'm sure. No it's not selfish to ask for more. One more night, one more day, one more smile on you face, but they can't take yesterday. I thought our days would last forever. (but it wasn't our destiny) 'Cause in my mind, we had so much time. But i was so wrong. Now i can, believe that, i can still find the strength in the moments we made. I'm looking back on yesterday(All the broken dreams take everything) But they can never have yesterday. .

it's sooo true.. we can never have yesterday.. but we can look forward right?

PAST is PAST and we should learn from it.

all the heartaches, problems and everything were just trials.

WE SHOULD LEARN TO LET IT GO KUNG KINAKAILANGAN NA DI BA?

it's not right to keep holdin on into something that was already letting you go and kept on hurting you. SOMETIMES you have to face it.

If God takes away something, He has something better to give.

So dont be afraid. The trials will make you a better person.

*********

continuation of my kwento for this week :

di ba nasa starbux ako? then i met celine and jasmine nah sa BDO then nagpunta kami imno nah. we had fun. pero know what?

sa imno.. MASAYA tlga and i loveeee the people there!

kasama ko sila majal, her bro,aldi,jerome,jasmine,cel and mikee.

anyway, i met this guy(couple of weeks ago), hes sooo cute!

(but i dunno if he likes me)

or he's just being friendly right???kileg ako!

okay.. eto na.. gulo ko talaga magkwento. haha.

umiyak si celine and superrr nagbreakdown siya!!!!

sobra kasi tinago ni celine yung pains and lahat ng sama ng loob niya

ayun, nagbreakdown siya.

nakita koh din sila yaje,aj,avior,their frnds and adrian.

tropa sila ng bestfriend ko na si mikmik.

ang cool nila. =p

dapat sa imno sila BUT wala na dw RH kaya lumipat silaa.

July 3, 2008

im with besh mik @ imno and we are with his friend nix.

ang cute ni nix. haha! peo asa pa me.

hehe.

i also met bryan after umuwi nila mik.

and nasa leg room kmi. (':

it was fun kasi miss ko na din siya.

siya lang nkakapagpauwi sakin ng maaga.

thanks babe.

peo masakit kasi he's still texting denise(his EX~!!)

bahala siya. once na napagod ako, pagod na talaga ako.

i wont look back anymore.

i dont need a guy na gagaguhin lang ako. PERIOD!

ordinary week lang toh. imno mode nmn ako lage.

i love my TRUE FRIENDS SO MUCH!!!

*******

quotes foe the week :

"you call it fate, i call it kama"

***

"i know i'll see you again, im sure. It's not selfish to ask for more.

One more night, one more day.

baby.. just one more smile on your face"

***

"its not that i dont love you,

i just need to find myself because

im starting to love you more than myself"

***

"give me a sad song and ill make it better"

***

"i gave you may all but you just let me fall"

**

"i want to know if i can live inside your world.."

broke down momentssss...

last monday, hinatid ako ni mommy sa school coz im sick.. then, when i arrived sa dorm,, no one was there! lyndon texted me, but i realized na i should rest nah.. then ayun. tuesday,, nagclass na kami.. nagpunta ako sa imno.. as usual.. here are some pics of my imno momentsss: me,mond,tinay,cocoy,trish,roxy

drunk silaaa

with cute frnd

trish,tinay and i

kace lovess

gin-a'colait

cute and sexy friend

blue margarita

me

well, imno is my tambayan.. i always go there. i meet new people. im sad last thursday, june 26. it was supposed to be an unofficial monthsary for me and my special someone. BUT the guy totally forget that thingy.. However, there's no commitment nmn so i can't blame him. Whenever were together, our attention was focused ONLY w/ each other but the sad thing is, when were not together, he don't text me or he don't even show he cares. How sad but that's life. Well im drunk last night. Im sooooo sad and nagbreakdown talaga ako. it's because of UNREAL friends whom i loved but it turned out to be na hindi totoong kaibigan and mejo gawa din ng guy na yun. Im the type of girl kasi na iniipon and pag napuno nah, ayunn.. Good thing i have my true friends : TINAY, HERMY, NEKNEK, AYA, MARA! kinomfort talaga nila ako. As in. (Thanksss lovesss,, i love you all sooo much!!!)

i am currently listening to : Bleeding Love

my vices right now is : sponge crunch, kitkat, coffee and of course, SISIG!!!

Tomorrow will be a better day.. (':

June 16, 2008 -> all i can do is "try"

"All I knowIs everything is not as it's sold but the more I grow the less I know. And I have lived so many lives,Though I'm not old And the more I see, the less I grow. The fewer the seeds the more I sow.Then I see you standing there, Wanting more from me And all I can do is try..Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try. I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness And all the real people are really not real at all. The more I learn the more I cry,As I say goodbye to the way of life, I thought I had designed for me . All of the moments that already passed, We'll try to go back and make them last. All of the things we want each other to be We never will be And that's wonderful, and that's life And that's you, baby This is me, baby And we are, we areFree In our love.."

well, honestly.. i am not that okay.. i don't know why i am like this. Yeah, im depressed! Super slow ko kasi, ang bagal kasi mag sink-in sakin yung mga nangyayari. Honestly, maybe.. MAYBE wala nmn ako kasi dapat ika-depressed but kung sabagay.. Naiinis ako sa mga people na parang magpaparamdam sayo na may something pero in the end, He would just tell you na "ayaw ng commitment" , na "ayaw ng obligations" , na "ayaw ng may iniintindi". A.hollee! grabee.. A good friend of mine (chini) told me that how come he dont want to be committed, he dont want obligations or what-so-ever tapos he makes me feel na may something. He was just scared of the responsibilities. Pero di ba, sana wag kang magpapa-fall ng tao kung wala ka nmn palang balak saluhin. I am starting to hate guys (honestly). Pare-pareho silang lahat e.. They dont know how to treat girls right. Ang babae, minamahal at inaalagaan. Hindi dapat sinasaktan.

At eto pah,, pagbukas ko ng pc namin, eh di nagfriendster ako, i saw his gf's account.(i mean "ex" daw nya), eh may recently added pics pa. Sarap di ba.. pero im not that stupid nmn, i know how and when to stop. I wanted to try but i am loosing myself, and i really have no reason to fight. I learned na in this world, there are so many lies. Sabi nga ni Alvin Galvez sakin na NEVER ko talaga nakakalimutan is that, "you should not believe agad sa mga sinasabi sayo ng guys or don't fall agad sa mga ginagawa nila 'coz im a guy, i know yung mga takbo ng utak ng lalaki.". Well, he's soooooo right.. So girls, wag agad tayo magpapauto sa mga guys. Let us make them realize na hindi dapat tayo sinasaktan. Let go of the things na nakakasakit sayo. And keep in mind na maybe kaya hindi sayo binigay sayo ni God yan, it's either na makakasama sayo yan or He has something better to give. (':

june 05, 2008 -> my 17th bday.. (':

My 17th Bday

June 05, 2008

meet my boinky

vain me
patrick changing his pants

me and patrick

sa mirror ng car

i woke up at around 10a.m.. The day before my big day, we went out.. Tumambay kami sa shell mamplasan(as usual) haha.. Then ayun.. Mom cooked my evr favorite spaghetti.. Umalis kami here sa house ng mga 3pm, we went first to Alabang Town Center, we played at timezone, eat merienda, videoke, window shopping. Around 6pm, we went to dad's so called "floating restaurant" haha. Bnilind fold nila ako! I was shocked because may chuva pa silang ganun.. hahah! Ayun, the restau was "Bamboo Asia Grill". It was fun.. We ate on a banana leaf, (i ate a lot) haha! Then there was a live band. Harold and I was about to jam with them but they took a break. We waited until 10 pero hindi pa din nagsstart! So we decided na mag-starbucks nalang. Tumambay kami, kwentuhan, etc. We went home ng mga 11pm.. (':

atc,escalator

blindfold!!!

hahah. tadahh!

Bamboo Asia Grill

Family pic

dad,mom,pat and i

kisshhhh en hugggg

best mom and dad in the world. (:

harold and kev

starbucksss

I HAD FUN. I REALLY LOVE MY FAMILY. Thanks mom, dad, harold, kev and patrick! i love you all!

may 30, SMX convention center. RUNWAY PRODUCTIONS, FASHION WEEK!

RUNWAY PRUDUCTIONS

Fashion Week

SMX Convention Center

May 30, 2008

ohh gusshh.. i love this day! know why?? a dream come true! Philippine Runway Productions launched a fashion week ,, some of the designers are pepsi herera, edgar san diego, etc.. etc.. etc.. at first akala ko hindi ako mkakapunta but good thing, ipinagpaalam ako ni tinay. ^^ AT around 2p.m, nagready na ako, then imineet koh yung friend niya sa festi na si maricar.. then we went to tinay's house @BF Paranaque then doon nag ayos..

i wanna be a model.. ^^ not just an ordinary model but international model..hahah. i loveee posing kasi and walking sa runway BUT bawal kasi sa st.paul.. kaya ayun.. studies muna..Then nung andun na kami sa SMX,, picture dito, picture doon,, then we tried artistry,, tapos we saw many artist like pinky amador izy of sexbomb, rene salud, etc.. haha.. then nagstart na yung fashion show.. i enjoyed it! A LOT! then after the show,, nagpunta kami sa backstage, tapos kasi may hot model na guy dun,, kaya nagpapicture kami.. haha.. We ate sa sbarro then bumalik ng SMX,, wala yung parents ni tinay so.. tinatanong pa ba kung ano gagawin namin?? siyempre picture2 ulit,, hahaha.. we went inside again, we explored every angles, sides, decorations, even the ramp! napagkamalan kaming mga models nung nagpapicture kami,, the gay asked us na "kayo ba yung mga models kanina?" PANALO!! haha... whooo!? hahha.. yeah,,.. ^^ Then kamusta nmn ang 3 inches na heels koh di ba,, hindi namin makita yung parents ni tinay, hinanap namin sa parking.. Kaya ayun mga 1 a.m na ako nakauwi..

SOOOOOO FUUNN!! thanks to you cute friend! ^^